{"id":626,"date":"2012-07-02T16:14:11","date_gmt":"2012-07-03T00:14:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/?p=626"},"modified":"2012-07-02T16:25:04","modified_gmt":"2012-07-03T00:25:04","slug":"thoughts-on-my-mortality","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/thoughts-on-my-mortality\/","title":{"rendered":"Thoughts on My Mortality"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I will not ask you not to cry<br \/>\nthough most of you will know that I<br \/>\nhave gone to Glory leaped into the light been embraced by Gaia<br \/>\nmoved on to my next body next level next planet next lesson<br \/>\nor become a small red puppy.<\/p>\n<p>Even when spirit still sings to spirit<br \/>\nwhen skin is parted from skin bodies must cry.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>I will hope that my writing friends survive me<br \/>\nand strangers, reading their fine elegies<br \/>\nwill think, &#8220;I wish I&#8217;d known her&#8221;<br \/>\nand feel a moment of regret.<\/p>\n<p>It would be nice<br \/>\nif all my books went into reprint<br \/>\nthe media published retrospectives of my life<br \/>\nand somebody famous wrote an unauthorized biography.<\/p>\n<p>I would like to imagine my friends<br \/>\nmarching on City Hall<br \/>\nshouting, &#8220;Her spirit is with us!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I would like<br \/>\nmy name on some small thing<br \/>\na shelter perhaps<br \/>\na scholarship<br \/>\nor an all-night coffeehouse with a library<br \/>\nwhere anyone can stay up all night and write.<\/p>\n<p>That someone might say, &#8220;She made a difference.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>But most of all<br \/>\nI hope someone remembers putting up tents in the rain<br \/>\nmaking snow-angels on Mount Rainier in July<br \/>\nwatching all-night Dr. Who marathons and eating brownies<br \/>\nmy holding your hand all night when you almost died<br \/>\nyou sitting by my hospital bed when I didn&#8217;t know you were there<br \/>\nspeak fondly of how crotchety I got<br \/>\nor try to share jokes that only we two understood.<\/p>\n<p>The only thing that kept me here so long<br \/>\nwas the bond woven of moments and touches<br \/>\nover and over again<br \/>\nfrom one single heart to another.<\/p>\n<p>Please God I be remembered<br \/>\nfor many small things.<\/p>\n<p>We fight revolutions so that one child can laugh<br \/>\nwhile blowing dandelions.<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><em>Written Wednesday 8\/15\/2001, after our homeless women&#8217;s organizing group held a memorial vigil for one more person found dead alone outside: Kathleen Bowman, 35, a suspected homicide.<\/em><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I will not ask you not to cry though most of you will know that I have gone to Glory leaped into the light been embraced by Gaia moved on to my next body next level next planet next lesson or become a small red puppy. Even when spirit still sings to spirit when skin [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,83,72,84,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-626","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems","category-spiritual-poems","category-wheel","category-women-in-black","category-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=626"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":631,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626\/revisions\/631"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=626"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=626"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=626"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}