{"id":45,"date":"2012-02-20T05:47:57","date_gmt":"2012-02-20T13:47:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/?p=45"},"modified":"2012-07-02T16:28:59","modified_gmt":"2012-07-03T00:28:59","slug":"quantum-states-of-mary","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anitra.net\/word\/quantum-states-of-mary\/","title":{"rendered":"Quantum States of Mary"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"Madonna

“Madonna & Child” by Wes Browning<\/p><\/div>\n

Mary,
\nholding your baby;
\ndid you see a shadow fall
\non the stable wall?
\nDid the wise men dare to tell you all they knew?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nwho are you?<\/p>\n

Frightened child bride,
\ntowed by an angry Joseph
\nthrough the swirl of history,
\nshouting prophets
\nthundering over your huddled form…<\/p>\n

Untouched maiden
\nmeekly kneeling
\nto the Master of the Universe,
\nraising one cuckoo
\nand a flock of sparrows,
\nnever losing serenity
\nor innocence…<\/p>\n

Conniving seductress
\nfoisting her bastard off on God,
\nhoaxing Joseph to raise it,
\nmuddling the boy into visions,
\nall to mask your own guilt…<\/p>\n

Daughter of the prophets
\npoised in ancient wisdom,
\ncuddling the sweetest infant
\nto the tenderest breast,
\nnursing him to sacrifice and glory…<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nwho are you?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\ndid you ever fear?
\nJoseph,
\ncuckold of God –
\ndid he take it out on you?
\nOr was he
\nso
\nkind and noble
\nyou felt unworthy,
\ndistrusting any moment
\nof anger
\nor any human weakness?<\/p>\n

Your child-man
\nwho never cried at night,
\nor begged for toys
\nthen broke them,
\nwho never raided the cookie jar,
\nor rubbed dirt in his best friend’s hair –
\ndid you know how weird he was,
\nbefore you raised the other boys?<\/p>\n

Did you ever lie awake
\nwith some deep grief;
\ndid he come hold your hand,
\nwisdom far too ancient in his eyes?<\/p>\n

When you found him
\nlecturing the scholars,
\ndid you see a cross-shaped shadow
\non his path?
\nDid you fear for him, Mary?<\/p>\n

Did you fear Him?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nI am afraid.
\nTo fall,
\nto fail,
\nto feel…
\nI am afraid of pain
\nand of the long slow numbing dark
\nwithout pain…<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nI do not know
\nwho I am.<\/p>\n

With no home and no money
\nam I helpless,
\nhopeless,
\nsick and pitiful?
\nAm I angry,
\nrobbed and ruined
\nby the System,
\nThem,
\nthe Others,
\nMother,
\nMen?
\nAm I stupid,
\nwrong,
\na wicked woman,
\nreaping the returns
\nof evil ways?
\nAm I the player,
\none strike down
\nbut grinning,
\nsetting my feet
\nto jump back in the game?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nam I your child?
\nWill you hold and warm me
\nuntil I am ready
\nfor my destiny?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nam I your sister?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nwhere are you?<\/p>\n

Have you found your ground
\nbeyond the swirl of history,
\ncascading quantum images
\nothers painted for you;
\nhave you made a place
\nto be your self?<\/p>\n

Mary,
\nshow me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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